Post by Summer on May 25, 2010 15:44:30 GMT -5
I am going to do my best to remember how I used to be when I was younger, and believed that my entire life revolved around finding a romantic partner who loved me. But I have found one thing to be unfortunately true for me: When one is older and wiser, one finally realizes that "romantic love" is the kind of love that ALWAYS fades away. The ONLY form of love that lasts is UNCONDITIONAL love. Which means that if one wants to be in romantic love, one will most likely find one's self going through partners about every 2 years or so, because that is when the "honeymoon period" is ALWAYS over. Once one actually lives with one's romantic partner, they fall off of the the pedestal, and that is when the "double-edged sword" part of romantic love begins.
Romantic love is exactly like a double-edged sword. If you want to experience the joy of it, you MUST also know beyond a shadow of a doubt that the opposite WILL also be experienced. There is NO other way to live with romantic love in one's life. It simply CANNOT be escaped. This is a world of dualities, and romantic love is no exception to that. So once one is in love, and feels the ecstasy of being "in love", then one must relish each and every moment of that because it is inevitable that it will end at some point or another, no matter how hard one tries to keep it going. Unconditional love is when one see's the duality of one's partner. Their good AND bad parts, and accepts exactly the way they are, without trying to change them anymore.
I have found within myself that I have been constantly seeking to find a man who acts like I believe I would if I were a man myself. I have found that for me, this is completely impossible. So I am "casting a spell" upon myself all day every single day, through the use of affirmations, to teach my mind and eventually my heart, to give up on "romantic love" as there will be no knight in shining armor for me. I WILL BE my own knight in shining armor, as I doubt that this is the life that I am meant to meet up with my twin flame, if there really IS such a thing. I truly DO wish deep within my heart that this was the life I was ready to meet my supposed "twin soul", but am extremely tired of waiting and being disappointed over and over again. So instead, I am re-programing my subconscious brain, which seems to be taking forever, as my broken heart is seeming nearly impossible to fix. Yet I realize from previous experiments, that if I never give up, I will be able to change my thought pattern, and therefore change my desires. I SO wish that Walt Disney never would have put out so many princess films as maybe then I would never have believed in finding a man "like myself" in this world. I feel that there are many hidden truths all throughout fairy tales, but I am beginning to think that the hero in each of them is one's self.
Don't get me wrong, I do believe that finding one's twin flame is possible for one in a billion or so of us. I feel am not one of the lucky 6 or 7 on this planet that will be able to accomplish this. Obviously, my soul must not be ready for such a thing, so I desperately NEED to get over it. And I will somehow, someday. There is no doubt about this within me. I simply WON'T give up until this unrealistic desire of mine is completely dealt with and gone. I don't want to hurt like this in my heart because I am seeking to be completed outside of myself forever. I truly believe the only way to get over the loneliness that almost every single person on this planet feels off and on, if not constantly, is to do one's very best to find a way to become as personally close to
the Divine Creator in whatever form one feels the closest to Him/Her. My theory at this point is that the reason we feel this separation/loneliness may be because of our separation from our Spiritual Parents. Or maybe because of our belief in our separation from our spiritual parents.
In the meantime I fight with my darker nature, and try many ways to deal with my disappointment and anger, to rid my being of it as soon as possible. I am doing my best to be optimistic that it won't take over a decade for me to accomplish my goal, but as it is yet another one of my usual experiments, I won't have any idea until the data is collected. The outcome will should be interesting when it finally arrives.
Romantic love is exactly like a double-edged sword. If you want to experience the joy of it, you MUST also know beyond a shadow of a doubt that the opposite WILL also be experienced. There is NO other way to live with romantic love in one's life. It simply CANNOT be escaped. This is a world of dualities, and romantic love is no exception to that. So once one is in love, and feels the ecstasy of being "in love", then one must relish each and every moment of that because it is inevitable that it will end at some point or another, no matter how hard one tries to keep it going. Unconditional love is when one see's the duality of one's partner. Their good AND bad parts, and accepts exactly the way they are, without trying to change them anymore.
I have found within myself that I have been constantly seeking to find a man who acts like I believe I would if I were a man myself. I have found that for me, this is completely impossible. So I am "casting a spell" upon myself all day every single day, through the use of affirmations, to teach my mind and eventually my heart, to give up on "romantic love" as there will be no knight in shining armor for me. I WILL BE my own knight in shining armor, as I doubt that this is the life that I am meant to meet up with my twin flame, if there really IS such a thing. I truly DO wish deep within my heart that this was the life I was ready to meet my supposed "twin soul", but am extremely tired of waiting and being disappointed over and over again. So instead, I am re-programing my subconscious brain, which seems to be taking forever, as my broken heart is seeming nearly impossible to fix. Yet I realize from previous experiments, that if I never give up, I will be able to change my thought pattern, and therefore change my desires. I SO wish that Walt Disney never would have put out so many princess films as maybe then I would never have believed in finding a man "like myself" in this world. I feel that there are many hidden truths all throughout fairy tales, but I am beginning to think that the hero in each of them is one's self.
Don't get me wrong, I do believe that finding one's twin flame is possible for one in a billion or so of us. I feel am not one of the lucky 6 or 7 on this planet that will be able to accomplish this. Obviously, my soul must not be ready for such a thing, so I desperately NEED to get over it. And I will somehow, someday. There is no doubt about this within me. I simply WON'T give up until this unrealistic desire of mine is completely dealt with and gone. I don't want to hurt like this in my heart because I am seeking to be completed outside of myself forever. I truly believe the only way to get over the loneliness that almost every single person on this planet feels off and on, if not constantly, is to do one's very best to find a way to become as personally close to
the Divine Creator in whatever form one feels the closest to Him/Her. My theory at this point is that the reason we feel this separation/loneliness may be because of our separation from our Spiritual Parents. Or maybe because of our belief in our separation from our spiritual parents.
In the meantime I fight with my darker nature, and try many ways to deal with my disappointment and anger, to rid my being of it as soon as possible. I am doing my best to be optimistic that it won't take over a decade for me to accomplish my goal, but as it is yet another one of my usual experiments, I won't have any idea until the data is collected. The outcome will should be interesting when it finally arrives.
